Hey beautiful people, what's up? I haven't written a blog in a while now. Actually, I've been MIA from everywhere for quite some time. I created this blog to share my feelings and thoughts with you. This is a personal space for me. Journaling my thoughts is a habit that developed over the years. It helped me get through some difficult phases. I never really spoke out about my depression or anxiety before. The first time I spoke out about it was on this blog only where I wrote A Letter To My Younger Self. Now, the reason why I've been absent from everywhere is that I'm going through a very difficult phase in my life.
First, let me be very clear. I'm not writing this to gain any form of sympathy. If this helps you in any way then that's great. So, here goes my story.
So, something happened that broke my confidence terribly. Even though, I know I don't deserve what I got but still I got it. This is the reason it hurts so much. If I deserved what I got I'd be fine. I don't know if I'm making any sense at all but this is why it's happening. My anxiety is at the highest peak. It's this feeling that keeps haunting me and makes me think I'm good for nothing. This is a dark phase in my life and everyone goes through some dark phases.
The one thing I know for sure is I'll come out of it. Sooner or later I'll overcome it and maybe a few years back when I look back I'll be glad that this happened. I've some amazing people who are there for me no matter what. But, this time is hard. I can't sleep, I don't want to eat, I don't feel like doing anything. But, I push myself every day to get through this and make myself understand that this is a part of life.
Being an introvert, I've very limited people whom I trust and they are well aware of what I'm going through. It feels like life is falling apart but at the same time I know I'd be able to pull it together. Whenever I feel like I'll collapse I close my eyes and think of all the good things that happened in my life. I write and listen to some soulful music. I read some good inspiring quotes. I came across this quote which says "Give yourself credit for the days you've made it when you thought you couldn't" and that's definitely something to be proud of. I'm a girl who will not give up no matter how strong the storm is or how much it brings me down. I'll fight and live through it. Some days are more terrible than other and some are hard.
So, yeah that's my story for now. Just remember one thing "Only you can help yourself and only you can fight for yourself.". You have to face it and giving up is definitely not an option. Every cloud has a silver lining.
First, let me be very clear. I'm not writing this to gain any form of sympathy. If this helps you in any way then that's great. So, here goes my story.
So, something happened that broke my confidence terribly. Even though, I know I don't deserve what I got but still I got it. This is the reason it hurts so much. If I deserved what I got I'd be fine. I don't know if I'm making any sense at all but this is why it's happening. My anxiety is at the highest peak. It's this feeling that keeps haunting me and makes me think I'm good for nothing. This is a dark phase in my life and everyone goes through some dark phases.
The one thing I know for sure is I'll come out of it. Sooner or later I'll overcome it and maybe a few years back when I look back I'll be glad that this happened. I've some amazing people who are there for me no matter what. But, this time is hard. I can't sleep, I don't want to eat, I don't feel like doing anything. But, I push myself every day to get through this and make myself understand that this is a part of life.
Being an introvert, I've very limited people whom I trust and they are well aware of what I'm going through. It feels like life is falling apart but at the same time I know I'd be able to pull it together. Whenever I feel like I'll collapse I close my eyes and think of all the good things that happened in my life. I write and listen to some soulful music. I read some good inspiring quotes. I came across this quote which says "Give yourself credit for the days you've made it when you thought you couldn't" and that's definitely something to be proud of. I'm a girl who will not give up no matter how strong the storm is or how much it brings me down. I'll fight and live through it. Some days are more terrible than other and some are hard.
So, yeah that's my story for now. Just remember one thing "Only you can help yourself and only you can fight for yourself.". You have to face it and giving up is definitely not an option. Every cloud has a silver lining.
Giving a piece from my heart to yours
Everything has a cure.
Don't stop believing
Cuz' life is worth living.
Pain is a phase
that makes you chase
the beauty of life
that you desperately thrive!
Goodnight People, sweet dreams!
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