2020: It's a wrap!

Hey everyone, how are you all doing? It's New Year’s Eve. 2020 has finally come to an end now. Woah! What a crazy year it has been. From forest fires to the deadly pandemic to a destructive cyclone- we have seen it all this year. We have also lost a lot of people this year- from loved ones to legends. It has not been an easy year at all. So, I wanted to publish a post to bid adieu to 2020 and wrap things up. My last post was about self-healing and hope. Things might get a little awry in this one so please bear with me and remember at the end of everything, there's still hope. ❤

 

Well, personally for me 2020 did not begin on a great note. I had to go through something that was very draining emotionally. I would not get over it ever. But, the show must go on and I could not give up on life. So, I continued to push myself and live. What I taught was living was barely surviving. I kept on working and working to distract myself. I did not sleep at all. All I did was work. I barely ate anything. I did not take care of myself. I overworked to the point that it drained me. Then I lost a family member who was very special to me. I did not speak about it, and I would like not too, since words cannot express what I felt. 

Life came to a standstill. I used work as an excuse to distract myself everything that was happening. Things got overwhelming. So, at the end of October, I decided it was too much and I need to slow down. I need to face my feelings, my emotions and stop running away from it. So, I took a break from everything and started facing a bunch of emotions that were being piled on. It was a lot. When I say a lot, I mean a lot. It became hard for me to breathe. I lost interest in everything. I stopped talking to everyone and went on a hiatus. My health started deteriorating, my mental health went haywire and I had a major burnout. I am still sick but I am glad I had that burnout. It is still not easy but I am doing much better. 

One good thing that happened is that I became extremely comfortable being by myself and doing things alone. It also helped me get rid of a lot of toxicity and negativity. Although, I am not at my absolute best I want to start the New Year on a good note. So, I pulled myself out of bed, got a little dressed up, brushed my hair, cleansed and moisturized my face, applied some tint and turned on my computer. I know it's TMI but for people like us, even the little chores like these can take a lot of efforts. Therefore, let's not lose hope and bid adieu to 2020 like the true warriors we are. 

This was not our year

We lost people near and dear,

Yet we fought and won like warriors

So, hold on to your hopes and tighten your gears

Here's wishing everyone a very

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Adios 2020! 💓

Fear- Is it a blessing in disguise?

Hey guys, what's up? So, for this blog post I decided to write upon a topic which is related to every single being on this planet- fear! If you say, you don't fear anything then chances are you are lying. Now, a question which often makes me wonder is whether fear is a boon or blessing in disguise?

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Fear- What is it to you? For me it's an emotion which can take control over our lives if we let it. We have the power to keep it in control. Fear is a natural human feeling. Every human being fears one thing or the other. We all fear of losing our loved ones or things that have a sentimental value. Someone fears death while someone fears life. But, will we let fear control our lives? Absolutely not, instead we can take it in a positive way. Everything in life has two sides: positive and negative. You either see the glass as half empty or half full. I'll prefer the later. While we fear losing our loved ones we know at the same time that we'll lose some of them in our lifetime- be it a person or a pet. This prepares us mentally for that kind of situation. It makes us stronger and better. Fear of failure pushes us to work hard and follow excellence. Fear of death makes us more acceptable to it because we know one day or the other death will come to us.Some of us may fear of living alone but we may have to live alone at some point in our lives. It prepares us for that also. We should not let fear chain us up to a certain place.

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As the saying goes "Fear has two meanings- Forget Everything and Run Or Face everything and rise." The choice is yours. You can't let fear conquer you and put you inside a bubble instead you should conquer fear and break the bubble. Fear makes us brave. Also, remember "Our largest fear carries our greatest growth." You got to decide whether you want it more or you are afraid of it more."

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Don't let fear stop you from living and don't let it conquer your dreams. If you look into the eyes of fear then fear will fear you and leave. I think we all got the answer to my question that fear if taken positively then it can prove to be a powerful blessing in disguise.

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A Letter To My Younger Self.

Hey everyone, what's up. So, for my next blog post I decided to write a letter to my 16 year old self who struggled a lot with everything. I'm not writing this to gain sympathy or anything. I just thought of sharing something which I think may help a lot of young people who are struggling with some issues. This letter may come as a shock to many of my family and friends or more than shock I'd like to say surprise. It's extremely personal and close to my heart.

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Dear Airene,
                     Hi! How are you? Though I know the  answer to this question but still I thought this would be a good start. Life is miserable I know. You are sixteen and you are consistently failing in everything. Your grades are dropping. You are confused. Your friends are leaving and nobody understands you. You are suffering from major depression and anxiety. You can't sleep at night. You feel like ending your life and there's nothing for you to live with.

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Trust me, girl you are wrong. Those sleeping pills aren't gonna help you. Why are you harming yourself? The people who made you shed tears aren't worth it. Trust me, you're going to realise it a few years later. You've got your parents who I know is a little overprotective now but trust me you're the world to them. They've got no one except you. You have got an amazing boyfriend who loves you unconditionally and will be with you years from now. You've got your best friend who is willing to go against the world for you. You have got a mother like cousin who loves you like her own daughter. Don't keep things shut to yourself. Open up, talk to someone , get help. Those grades on the paper doesn't decide your value. Eventually, you'll do what you love and always wanted. You'll be happy and content in life. You have lost many people and Thank God you did. You don't need them. Learn to love yourself a little.

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Trust me, life's gonna be a thousand times better than what it is now. You will still struggle but you will overcome it like a boss. You'll be stronger and better. You will have people who will love you with all their life and you'll love them back. They'll accept you for who you are, what you are and how you are. You are going to be a die hard animal lover. You'll have lots of pet.

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So, gain lessons from these experience and start living your life. You don't want to miss out on so many awesome things. Trust me, life is short and worth giving a shot.

                                                                                                                                     Yours truly,

From a better, stronger and happier

Your  21 year old self.

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